Hero unaffected
I write my woes using your reference to my whiney “I want a new life” to detach myself from a pending emotion. I know its my voice acting as yours. A new life doesn’t mean one without you, just a softer you, and baby maybe miles away from this city that keeps me falling.
Not that the grass is greener but the storms wash a little cleaner. I know it’s your strength moving us forward. I know this life holds more than whatever love I think you show. You come over here and I’ll stick with friends so hurts don’t resurface full of stuff we’ve long been over and still the pages turn and deep inside we yearn for…a bit of color to drain the rainy sky and our solid rock hard hearts, weary from hoisting loads on one set of shoulders down lonely roads, meant to belong to two.
Forget yesterday when fear kept us worlds apart. Friends can love long enough to mend, to walk away for new days of surrender and another part of love. Here I sit with it all in my head. My life seems so much more inside where villains can’t muss and balloon dreams don’t bust. Destiny held in the limits of the sky and you hoisting me on shoulders so I can reach that high.
Hide your emotion when love comes crumbling. Gushing feeling aches, as defense softly breaks. It’s not so much avoiding as staying unattached. Be unaffected.
“Baby there’s a deeper strength in you.” You come over here and swell this heart full of something your not supposed to feel lest that rock hard heart be crumbled and strength of any kind will disappear.“Being there for you baby” isn’t the same sentiment to you.
Never suffer a tear to fall and never let your friends fall. Never endure the pain, just stuff it down somewhere. Never let foes sneak in unaware. Love’s stone cold hero, do you like the stronger part? The resistance to falling, growling at evils far away? Wearied warrior’s can crumble. Lay down that resolve to never soften. Then say don’t fall…stay back unaffected…and walls will disappear.
It is deep. Just Be.